I'm saying "not so serious" because he has no plans on settling down. He has no plans on getting married and he doesn't want to commit entirely. Why am I still in this relationship? Because I want to. Because I love him. Because I actually have strong feelings for him and maybe perhaps one day he may change his mind?! But then again, we cannot change people unless they are willing to change! Do I keep my options open? Maybe. I would still be open to meeting new people... of course because I like meeting new people all the time... I would stay faithful, of course! But once I meet someone and I believe there is a chance that it's a "serious" one, then I'll give up this "not so serious" relationship... He had made his choice by choosing not to settle, he has made the choice to keep this private... He prefers to keep his "single" civil status. Why would I bother? My civil status is "married". I've been separated for 7 years and raising my kid all by myself. Do I want someone to help me? I don't mind. I've done it alone and I can still continue doing it alone... He hasn't bothered getting close to her... Ouch! This means that he really doesn't want to get close or isn't really serious... Many friends say, just let go... I deserve better. Maybe, yes. I do... I deserve someone who will treat me like a queen. Someone who would do anything to keep me by his side and wants to see me happy all the time. Someone who makes me laugh without even doing anything. Someone who'll listen to whatever crap I have on mind and doesn't judge. One day, I'll push through with the annulment only if I find someone worthy and willing to wait and spend the rest of his life with me. We're not getting younger. Who knows what can happen?! Anytime, any day... I could just let go... I could just stop. It could just end. I'm not depressed. I'm just sad. It's just how it is and we cannot change the facts. If he's not for me he will not be for me. The higher power has a plan... I hope this sadness is temporary. I'm tired of crying. But then again, I choose how I feel... I need positivity. I'll pray. I hope everything works out just fine.
I've used a liquid foundation to conceal and contour my face; a darker and a shade that's almost the same as my skin tone. I used some concealer to conceal some red spots and acne marks as well as dark spots.
I've mixed 2 shades of matte lip cream from NYX to achieve that tone. (Copenhagen and Addis Ababa).
NYX Jumbo pen for my water-line to make my eyes look bigger. I've been recently digging this look.
Cat eyeliner with my Ever Bilena HD liquid liner.
Eyebrow powdered and used tinted gel to thicken and accentuate my eyebrows that look a lot thicker than the usual suspects.
My eyebrows are very thin and not so bushy... So I need to fill them in.
Also wearing false natural lashes to make this look dramatic.
Also used the brow powder to contour and smoke my eyelids.
Bronze cream eyeshadow from Maybelline to fill my lids.
Contour powder by TheBalm. (Bahama Mama) This is my ALL TIME FAVE contour powder for now.
My boyfriend introduced this to me a few months ago and recommended me buying this.
Initially, I thought this was not working for me at all, but over the times, when I had a pimple, or a breakout, he would use this on the affected area... even before you start to break out and you feel that there is redness and that there will grow a pimple, you can apply this stuff twice a day... it will disappear within 3 days or even less, depending on your skin chemistry. I have finally purchased a tube for myself. It's a gel type formula which is easily absorbed into the skin. It instantly dries up the pimple.
You can only purchase this at Watson's or Mercury. Stocks are limited, so you need luck getting this.
EVER BILENA HD liquid eyeliner in black (PHP200 that includes 2 FREE eye pencils)
EVER BILENA HD mascara in black (PHP250 that also includes 2 FREE eye pencils)
NYX jumbo pen in MILK (ca. PHP180 from my NYX suki at the bazaar)
NYX round lipstick in SPELL BOUND (from KMYP)
MAYBELLINE 2-way cake foundation in SAND BEIGE (PHP260)
NICHIDO blush stick (PHP150)
THE BALM's BAHAMA MAMA bronzer for contour (around PHP800 @ the BEAUTY BAR) my current go-to favourite :)
You don't need to splurge on expensive makeup to achieve an awesome all night look.
Imagine spending hundreds on eyeliners where it just melts on your lids when they become oily... Not a problem with this eyeliner I used. The only thing I didn't enjoy was that it was too SHINY for my taste... EVER BILENA... please make a MATTE eyeliner... I would totally purchase that s*it!
This has been taken last Saturday at the beach where I don't wear makeup and this is how my face looks like without filter and sunlight. I have been staying away from wearing makeup everyday. I only wear makeup when I go out at night and recently just spotting the basic cat eyeliner look. Check out my latest steal my look coming right up... I like how the sunshine shows my actual eye colour which I am beginning to like more and more... I've previously disliked my eye colour because it was too common... back to my skin... I like that I'm naturally blushing and that he prefers it when I actually don't wear makeup. He says that my makeup makes me look a bit older... sometimes I have to agree... depends also on the makeup look that I'm wearing when I do decide to wear makeup... getting enough sleep is a big part of keeping your skin healthy. Washing it before sleeping and when you wake up is also very important. I still tend to get oily but that's only because I am super lazy to put any moisturiser on my face at all... I prefer to just have a facial wash and voila!
I've been enjoying a facial scrub from Nivea that he is also currently digging and adding to his daily facial cleansing routine... lucky for both we can use it up at the same time...
I just stumbled on this product by chance when it was on SALE @ Watson's for PHP50 the smaller tube... That's half the price... It is not so easy to find, mostly it's out of stock so I will still end up buying the smaller tube which is also practical for travelling. I could practically use this even without my clarisonic brush which is already going to retire soon. I'm having my eyes on a new facial brush which I updated on my wishlist... check previous post if you wanna see how it looks like... I can't wait to purchase mine from the US. Google Soniclear. :)
I have still been using Shu Uemura cleansing oil to remove and cleanse my skin from makeup... sometimes even when I get lazy to wash my face because the oil naturally moisturises my skin...
I end up actually enjoying touching my bare face and seeing how I look and feel fresh...
Have you ever gotten compliments that you look younger than your real age? Well, yeah, I get that all the time now! They all think I'm in my early twenties when I'm actually in my late 20s. How awesome is that? People still think I'm going to school?! Nice...
This year for the 5th anniversary, Malasimbo Music Festival is celebrating for 2 weekends...
First weekend: Music and Arts Festival
Second weekend: Lights and Dance Festival
See below for their line-up:
Above is an actual photo I have taken when I attended the Malasimbo Music Festival last Saturday night.
I had a 3-day pass but I was only able to attend 1 day. I won these babies through www.radiorepublic.ph contest since they also facilitated a part of their performers...
For the first time to attend the Malasimbo Festival, I can say that the ambiance and the experience is very pleasing. The people there were all in a good mood, there were zero fights. The food was good... I've seen people I haven't seen in a decade or so... it was a fun night, despite the pricey food and drinks...
You had a wristband that was given to you by the entrance when submitting you tickets...
You use that to reload and pay for the establishments. It was very well organized and there were a lot of people... I was not very happy though regarding the performances maybe it was too hippie for me. I really enjoyed the reggae performance though (I guess it was worth the wait.)